What Was I Thinking?!

I have been working my ass off on this show.  It's a bitch; I'm not going to mince words here.  Thank god I filmed everything already because holy shark tooth it's a pain in the ass to edit all this stuff with a full time job.

That being said I'm not going to sit here and tell you that I'll persevere and muscle it out and get it done just for the love of the game.  That's bullshit.  Sure, sometimes you climb a mountain or play a football game in shitty conditions and put yourself through torture to come out on the other end to say "That's right Archibald, I lost three fingers but Sherpa Joe and I summited the top of Everest regardless." but I shouldn't be climbing Everest here...  I'm making an entertaining god damned show!  So forget all of that muscling through shit cause at the end of the day that's what's gonna be on the screen; a bunch of muscle and no happy silly entertainment.  No! the key is I have to enjoy what I'm doing.

Why aren't I enjoying making this show as much? you might ask.  Because, about 50 - 75% of the time, I have been thinking about what I should be doing instead of doing what I want to do.  This would include making the episodes shorter because I think people will get bored or longer because I don't think they're long enough.  I've been trying to format this thing as if it were on TV - like if it were to get picked up for TV I would be ready to go.  Well that's a bunch of shit and I'm done with it.  I'm making The Fucking Jordan Show here for the INTERNET and that's that.  If I feel like I can squeeze enough juice out of a segment for an episode and it makes it longer than normal then so be it, for Christ!

You see, what happens is when you do things for other people you begin to not give a shit about it anymore.  It becomes a chore rather than a hobby or passion because you're throwing away your own natural creativity in it for some other massive collection of people who think they know what they want to see from you.  And that's the problem - I believe that people are expecting something from me.  The truth is people DON'T GIVE A SHIT what I put out until they see it.  Someone will either like it or not.  Hang me by the hair the day I forgot that principle.  I guess that's what agents are for - to knock you upside the head every now and again and remind you to just make the best show you can make.

So fuck my rinky-dinky 5 - 7 minute episodes if I don't want em!  And fuck avoiding saying the word fuck!  Jordan cusses like a sailor who get's in fights instead of getting laid and that's what Jordan's gonna do (I normally don't talk in third person though).

So, I've got an edition for Breaking Down coming up that I thought I was gonna have to go out and film more stuff for because it was lacking - but it's not lacking - it's going to come out how I want it.  I want to love watching this show.  Don't be scared though - this whole distaste came whilst editing the current edition on Food Trucks - Seattle was done for the love of it and THANK GOD I edited Cosplay before this BS conformist crisis cause that definitely would have sufferend.  The show will stay on track and be the shit.  Watch out for yourself and don't let anyone say SHIT.

--J.O'Ly